Yesterday I

Met Viv and went to Raffles City
Read stupid kiddy books at MPH (the bread must be haunted!!)
Realised Mun was at Raffles Place instead of City Hall
Met Mun, Lizard, Su
Listened to Lizard wax lyrical about her fortune teller (and sound like a complete lunatic while at it!)
Ate at Subway
Went to Third Place for Mosh.06
Saw Veron!!! (omffffggggggg)
Watched punkrock/emo/hardcore/whatevercore bands play
Saw Ben play
Talked to Ben
Got his demo
Ran out of the room and sat outside with Viv while grossssss AVA played
Saw people I know (yes this is rare)
Watched Spanish Fly play
Sat on the countertop at the mini cafe and watched Crossbred
Took a taxi back with Viv

I HAD SO MUCH FUN AND IT WAS GREAT TO SEE SU MUN LIZARD AND VIV!!!
Whoo I love you guys! :D:D:D

[and Lizzzard you are super loony, I hope your 'lucky numbers' really are lucky, REMEMBER ME!! if you strike lucky! x) ]

hehhehheh

The bra phenomenon

Robinsons is having a sale, and it's really packed. I went down this evening with my mum and brother to see if I could spend my Christmas vouchers, and well. Let's just say we didn't really hang around for long.

There were freaky aunties everywhere, grabbing, pushing, shoving, snatching, chatting, molesting the merchandise..

So anyway, we took a walk across the road to John Little, and there, sitting outside, was this biiig display of underwear and bras.
Noticing it, my mum gave me this poke and went

"See! I TOLD you Singaporeans have an obsession with bras!"

And well, it IS true! There's always some sale on bras going on. Any major departmental store would be having some "buy two get one free" special, or some shit deal like that. Seriously!!

I've noticed this happens only in Singapore.
What's up with that!

It's not as if there's some major rockstar passing through every weekend so preteen kids can buy bras to throw at them. Or even some 'auntie-killer' canto-mando-whateverthefucko-popstar popping by.

This is just too weird, kids.

Never tell Nigel anything!

OMG this is tooooo funny I had to post it here.

Never tell my brother anything!!
Once, at dinner, my father told my brother

"If you burn a cork, you can use the soot to blacken your face, as camouflage."

Well that steel trap mind has stored that, and look what happened tonight!!



By the way, he's campaigning for "FREEDOM", unlike "free dom", as you may be inclined to think.


Don't try this at home kids, all stunts were performed by a 'trained' 'professional'! Haha. I've heard it's hard to scrub off. But it does disappear pretty quick with a wipe of soap!

Psycho shit!

In other news, Kaiya has chewed his rawhide chew bone until one end has fallen off, and that end is wet, cold and squishy.
Random "EEEEEEEEEE!!!!"s can be heard as poor hapless victims unknowingly tread on the slimy landmines.

I tell you sirs, this house is maaaaaddd!!

I had the best best bestest dream last night.
I was sitting in the carpark area at the old school campus with all the other sec 4's of 2005, and we were collecting our O level results. So I glanced at my slip, and i saw it.

EIGHT POINTS.

omg I almost died. And when I woke up, I was stupendously happy, then I realised. It was alllllllll a dream.

sigh.

How I wish, I wish.

Anyway, the whole day I spent feeling like I was wrapped up in cotton wool. Like everything was dulled and sort of like I was underwater. Kinda lonely, too. And slightly sick, nauseous. Irritable too.
Sigh.
Maybe its the so-called 'post holiday letdown'.
or not.

whatever it is, please, make it go awayyyy
:'(

We like the moooooon!
(this is the reason for the title.)

Hello I'm bored and Dong is the Father of Bodom (Children of Bodom, get it? haha), and he's curing my bored-ness cause he suggested I post!
*Hey, hang on, if Dong's the father of Bodom and there're children of Bodom, then who the hell's Bodom?!
haha. I'm lame.

(and Dong I'm still bored hahahahahaaa)

Anyway, went to Overdrive competition yesterday, and finally saw Gazss play. Haha, whoever said they were Singapore's Skid Row, yeah man! I completely agree :D:D:D
Sadly, they came in third, losing to two metal bands! hahaha.
Oh you should've seen the metalheads headbanging, so cute/funny/retarded/spaz/all of the aforementioned, take your pick.
haha.

Ok pictures of Gazss are under "Nic's pics", or, if you're slow and don't know where that link is, you can link HERE!!
and there seems to be a sideways Dong on the cover! hahahaha


Viv says this is Happy Shaun, not Scary Shaun! xP

Ok I feel really slow now. Haha. Sad.

See, earlier tonight Ben came online and posted the link for Mosh.06 in msn, and asked me to go. But I told him I couldn't, since I'd already promised Dong I'd go for his gig at Third Place on the 30th.

So ok, like an hour and a half later, I decided to click on the Mosh.06 link, just to see what bands are playing this year. To my surprise, one of the first things i see is "location, Third Place."
Then I thought, wait, wait, Spanish Fly and Crossbred are playing there on that date.
Then! I look at the band list, and I realise.



It's the same gig.


Oh, I am slow!

Before I typed this I was trying to organise the torrent of words raging around in my head. It would be so much easier to be able to plug something into my head and print out whatever's swirling around, that way I wouldn't stress so much over how to phrase everything.
Because everything sounds different when you say it out, or in this case, type it out.

I had a million and one damn things to say, about whatever happened over the past few days and shit, but the moment I started typing I figured, who cares?
People are temporary, the world will end in a few million years or less, and we are living a cursed existance. Yeap, weep for the world and cry for civilisation, why don't you?

I sound so cynical and so jaded don't I? Well kids, I wasn't born like this. I've been forced and molded and wrung out and created into what I am now.

(I have no idea what I'm saying)

So anyway. Powers greater than me in this house have insisted I go look for another job instead of just waiting for the SSC to call me. Rawr. I've been bumming around, relaxing and going out and having fun, and I think it's just jealousy talking.
But I can't say that, oh no I can't, I'll get branded "selfish, conceited, full of myself" and whatever other negative thing you can think of.
One of those awful people who abandon their rabbits by the roadside? That works too!

I need to find a job.

No more guitar lessons, til I don't fucking know when. After Viv and I could've got the slot we wanted too.

I'm so sorry Viv. Really, I truely am.

I might as well sell off my guitar now. Cause I'll never be good, not with people who are against me learning and playing from day one.

Want to swap lives for a bit?
Want to swap lives forever?
Want to push me onto the road in front of an oncoming truck?
I don't mind.

This house may look beautiful, honey, but its occupants leave much to be desired.


And that's the honest truth.

I'm glad I'm going out tomorrow. (:

Also, Nig gets back from camp tomorrow. Whoo. Now I wouldn't have to try (and fail miserably) to fill his shoes in keeping the emotional stability of the house. Or whatever he does to keep people happy.
Thankgoodnessforthat.

I'm quite tired of trying to decipher every little nuance, wondering what it means, trying to figure out how to react, what mask to put on, what expression to reveal. desperately curbing my tongue so I don't talk back, but that never works. nothing works, sometimes I want to give up, give it all up.
jump, slit, swallow?
In frustration, this morning, I bashed my head against the wall. I don't know why I did it. Helplessness, I guess. I saw stars, and they were beautiful. Deep blue, but somehow shiny, ethereal, wonderful and more real than my existance on the staircase.

and then they were gone and all I had to remember them by was a throbbing, dull ache.

I think I'm going to go mad here. Someone, someone rich? Give me lots of money and fly me to my destination of choice so I can start a new life.

pweeeease?

Saw Saw? (two)

Saw 2.
WHATTHEFUCKINGHELLSICKTWISTEDDISGUSTINGDISTURBINGSHIT!
I'm so definitely going to watch the third one! if it comes out.
(Dong says June '06? I hope so.)

Anyway. Viv and I were watching it, and three quarters of the time we were like

"fuck fuck fucking hell sick shit what is his problem the sick fucking shit what the fuck oh my god shit fuck oh fucking eeeuw eee!"

haha. You can get the picture. But it was really cool too, especially the twist. I love the twist.
'Come on let's do the twist!'
Muahaha.

It has all the elements of a good show. The "hoodie man", the "pale girl", the "evil woman", the "pretty-but-slutty woman", the "emo-looking kid", the "mad stabber", the "sick shrivelled twisted shit with his smirk" and the "guy with the shot eye who died first".
hahahaa.

Hello I'm a year older, how about you?

What a great pickup line hahaha.

Today was great, just great! (((:

First, Viv came over! Whoooooo. Thanks for the Starbursts! (pimplegummies! LOL) and the card and the Borders card wheeeeeee!!!!

Then I went to meet Shaun and Shaun is really so so sweet ah ah ah ah!
Thanks baby I love you (:

I had a mini-surprise party, and everyone was just wonderful :D:D:D
haha I seriously love everyone today!

I had my birthday cake today! A small one from Awfully Chocolate.
And it was Awfully Nice! haha.

Had it early cause tomorrow Nig has a band performance at Lau Pa Sat (Did i get the spelling correct!?)
Yes, Nig will be blowing... his trombone! for the oldie hawkers.
So anyway, as Nig will be away at band camp on my birthday, we had the cake today!

As I blew out my candles, I thought frantically of a wish. But I couldn't think of one straight away. I just thought of my wish now, so I hope it still counts! haha.

I hope it comes true. I can't tell you what it was, though, or it wouldn't. Haha.
Hey don't mock the power of the birthday wish, cause what I wished for last year came true. Yes it really did. And last year's wish was a wild wish. Really, seriously. But I didn't wish for it with my cake. I wished the wish after the cake, at night privately. And I can't tell you what it was heh.

Anyway, whatever. I'll do it again this year and hope it comes true again! hahaha.

I was reading the classifieds today, out of sheer boredom, and I chanced upon this gem of a job advertisment.
It killed me! haha

Quick, your prata's burning and the customers are whining!

Anyway. Kaiya's so cute. You're just jealous that you don't have a cutie patootie dog like Kaiya! Nanny nanny poo poo!


yes I'm still very bored.
I'm turning into a myspace whore, I think.
It's filled with emo kids.

save me.

There's this band named Patent Pending, and they've got a song called "Cheer Up Emo Kid"
Patent Pending is a ska band. Well, it IS ska ok it sounds like punk but there's brass in it.
Oh who cares the song is ubersupercute. haah. Ask me I'll send it to you.

HAHAHAHAH IT'S SO CUTEEEEE OMFFFGGGG HAAHAH

In other news.. Lucie has turned into this biiiig bread muncher. Haha I think she picked it up at Viv's, now when I give her a bit of bread she stuffs it in her cheek pouches and looks around for morrrrrrre!
Play "stuff the hamster!"

muahahaha

"Cheer Up Emo Kid"

I've got a problem with everyone I know
I've got a problem I want everyone to know
I got home late last night from the punk(PUNK) rock(ROCK) show
I say it sucked because I'm emo

I'm gonna cry
I'm gonna scream
I'm gonna say what I don't mean
I'm gonna cry
I'm gonna mope
I'm gonna give up all my hope
Bringing everybody down
Everybody with a frown
Bringing everybody down
Wait for death to come around

Cheer up emo kid
It's a brand new day
Cheer up emo kid
It'll be okay
Cheer up emo kid
It's a brand new day
Cheer up emo kid
It'll be okay

I like to listen to my favorite band the cure
I'd ask her out but she'd say no!
No for sure

I'm gonna cry
I'm gonna scream
I'm gonna say what I don't mean
I'm gonna cry
I'm gonna mope
I'm gonna give up all my hope
Bringing everybody down
Everybody with a frown
Bringing everybody down
Wait for death to come around

Cheer up emo kid
It's a brand new day
Cheer up emo kid
It'll be okay
Cheer up emo kid
It's a brand new day
Cheer up emo kid
It'll be okay

Aww.. cheer up emo kid!

Cheer up emo kid
Nobody likes me, everybody hates me
Cheer up emo kid
Nobody likes me, everybody hates me
Cheer up emo kid
Nobody likes me, everybody hates me
Cheer up emo kid
Nobody likes me, everybody hates me

Nobody likes me
Everybody hates me
Nobody likes me
Everybody hates me
Nobody likes me
Everybody hates me
Nobody likes me
Everybody hates me
Nobody likes me, everybody hates me
Nobody likes me, everybody hates me
Nobody likes me, everybody hates me
Nobody likes me
I guess I'll go eat worms!

haha. Yes it's very cute.

Another sentimental argument and bitter love.
freaked without a kiss again and dragged it through the mud.
Yelling at brick walls and punching windows made of stone.
The worry rock has turned to dust and fallen on our pride.
A knocked down dragged out fight.
Fat lips and open wounds.
Another wasted night and no one will take the fall.
Where do we go from here?
And what did you do with the directions?
Promise me no dead end streets
And I'll guarantee we'll have the road.

"Worry Rock"
-Green Day

Viv's gone today!! Booooo.
Have fun in Sydney, leftypal. Bring me back an aussie surfer, and bring Dong back his beaver girlfriend!
muahahahaha.

"Everything I Once Had"
-The Honorary Title

Everything I once had
The bar on 1st Avenue, we went there solely for you
So you can flirt with my best friend
Kiss a girl, tell me why you're laughing

I won't hold on to this
There's a hole in the trust that we mapped out
In my bed for six long months

February, Valentines Day
Did my best to avoid the red cliches
So you dumped me on the subway
On my way to work at 9 in the morning
Everybody else is holding bouquets
Now I'm holding my face in the basement
Scratching away for any trace
Of affection you will leave
Falling victim as the publics prey

I won't hold on to this

Anyone is suitable for you, I guess, tonight
You weren't fazed
It's over with
You my beautiful
You weren't fazed
It's over with you my beautiful
With your beautiful blue and white

ah I so love this song, listen to the singer's voice, it's really sad. haha. Feel what he's feeling, and you may just cry.
That's what makes something good to me.
Emotion
Feelings

The song's jumped to the second-most-played song in my iTunes. No mean feat, I assure you.

Ok the pictures from Friday are up. Haha. Retardedness.

here.

And I got a guitar stand for my bday from my mum. I haven't adjusted it yet though haha.

Oh and I was so bored I painted Kaiya's nails! They're bright blue and will be bright blue for Christmas too! muahaha.

look at those fuzz feet!!
you can see his nails in the dark, awesome!

Ok ok I'm here to blog about yesterday. Cause Viv's a naaaaaaaag!! Hahah. It's more like my fingers are lazy and I don't have diarrhoea of the fingers yet. It'll develop though!

Soooo. I met up with Viv at Serangoon station and we took a train to Harbourfront. After lunch at Subway and many many phone calls and messages from Dong and Su, Viv and I managed to get Su over to Harbourfront too.

AND SU WAS WEARING A SKIRT!!! That's a moment I'll savour for the rest of my life. Heheheh.

After that, we headed over to Sentosa and played "tourist" for a while. We got bored of it soon though, and after deciding that we wouldn't pay $10 to see Mun in a santarina suit at Images of Singapore, Viv, Su and I went to Palawan beach to catch the gig.
And the beach tram driver is either Su's or Viv's (or both) best friend! hahaah. It was really kinda funny. Stupid trammy driver.
Oh and there was this angmoh family who sat behind us in the tram and I realised that they were the same people in front of me at the airport taxi line when I got back from Bali!
Yes, Singapore is waay too small!

Ok Dong is going to love me here haha but seriously, Spanish Fly was the best band that played! Yes, I've put aside my bias-ness to give you a frank opinion. haha.

Blow And Go baby!

During Aphro's set me, Viv and Su went off to meet Mun, as Mun was LOST! Ha. Su was emo-ing and Mun had to get back, so they left on the NEL and Viv and I went to the Mcdonalds at Harbourfront to have a (late) dinner, and we were shortly joined by Dong and co.

And I shot Viv with Subway straw wrappers and ice from Mcdonalds! (And thanks Dong for getting me even MOREEE ice muahahah)

So. Good day?

Yes very, very, very! :D:D:D

Oh and FINALLY! Dong has admitted my hair is LONGER THAN HIS MUAHAHAHAHA.

I was on the plane!

I don't have many shots from Bali, cause I didn't have my camera with me most of the time (stupid Nic!) But I didn't wanna leave it on the beach or unguarded by the pool, so..

Anyway. Pictures here and only here!



Yes I went parasailing. It was sooo awesome! Dude! haha.

and that's my landing commitee. x)


let's go surfin' now


everybody's learnin' how..


Dad's a bum


and the kids are retarded
(we just came from the pool!)


And you better stop oggling my butt you perv, look at the shorts! haha.

Hard Rock Hotel Bali!

I think my dad has more pictures, which means you'll all see them in seventeen-thousand years. Muahaha. I'll post them when I get them!

Hello hello Nic is baaaackkkk from Bali!!

It was so so mad fun, ahhh!!!

I've had (almost) four days of sun, sad, surf, pools, rock music! haha. For three nights I watched the live band that played at the Centerstage bar from 8:30pm til midnight in the Hard Rock Hotel, where I stayed. They were called "Siluet" and they're good! They do great covers of Muse too!

So days in Bali went like this:

landed, checked into the hotel, lunch, pool, dinner, Centerstage, sleep.

breakfast, surfing, Bali tour to Ubud, back to the hotel, Centerstage, sleep.

breakfast, paragliding (fucking fun!), pool, lunch, surfing, pool, dinner, Centerstage, sleep.

breakfast, pool, lunch, shopping, to the airport!

Bali is sooo funfunfun. And the people are so friendly and nice, and everyone chats to you and smiles. So unlike Singapore. I love the place and the people. My surfing instructor (Otonk) and Roy, one of the singers from Siluet. Haha they're grrreat fun.

Mun, Bali is angmoh heaven!

There're three types of people in Bali. Locals, tourists and surfers! Haha. There're so many surf shops in Bali. Seriously. Every other shop sells surf gear or boards etc.

I wanna go back to Bali!

Maybe in a year or so I'll go back to Bali to bum for a couple of weeks. By staying in a lower budget hotels, it'd cost me about SGD2000 with airfare.

Anyone wanna come with me? (:

Hello dearies!
My flight to Bali leaves tomorrow morning at 9ish, so I'll see everyone when I get back!

I'll try get on a computer in Bali, so I may be able to update.
Mun, Viv and Dong Dong, I'll see you all on the 2nd of December! Take care til then! X)

And Shaun, I love you :)

Ok so I've realised, a LOT of people don't get my emo kid joke.

"How do you get an emo kid out of a tree?"

"Cut the rope."

See, you know emo, correct? Of course you do, everyone knows emo. Or some wanky definition of it. Anyway, seeing as the kid is an emo kid, he's hung himself in the tree. That's why you need to "cut the rope" to get the emo kid out.

get it?

It's pretty sad when I have to spell out my whole joke. It ruins it!! :(

Kaiya's going off tonight to my aunt's place. Lucie's going to Viv's place tomorrow morning. My family is being dispersed again.
The whole of tomorrow will be taken up by my cousin's second wedding. Honestly, wasn't getting married once enough, now he's doing it all over again, with a new wife. :S

And Sunday I'm going to Bali!!

Fuck. This guy on the Ultimate Guitar forum claims to have sent in one faulty Gibson SG for repairs and received SIX more back, plus his own!!!!







holy fucking hell!!

HERE'S the link to the original forum, if you want to read arguements, speculations etc on why it's real and blah blah blah, if you can be bothered to go through 13++ pages of posts.


Why why can't this happen to me?!!?!?!

Mad fun at Viv's place today!
Mun, Viv and I ate pizza(we were so fungry before that!), watched Ok Go videos, watched retarded Playhouse Disney (Viv did), called up hair salons for Mun, listened to music in Viv's uber-neat room, played her guitar and hugged and hogged pillows and generally acted completely retarded.

It's so nice to be able to! :D:D:D

After that, I went back and dyed my hair! It's this shade of brown now. Not too obvious, but I think it'll lighten up over the next few days. Viv dyed her hair next, at her place, and Mun dyed her's some reddish-purplish colour at a hair salon in the evening!

Whoohoo.

Oh, the price on my car has increased!! :( so sad!!

HELLO!!

Will Santa put this under my tree? Or in my parking lot?

Click!

Thanks, now you know what to get me for Christmas.
Or, my birthday comes first ;)

omg omg omg

All the years of primary school, grade school, secondary school - thirteen years in all, and it's done! over with!

wahoo!

s;dktrhsukthxfehjrtu8r89u89Y(rhwuofhduio!!

Now I can bum around openly!

There's this great sense of release.

I'll just suffer everything next year, when results come out.

Right now, it feels like my life is stagnant, but I hope that'll change soon.
*crosses fingers*

Tales from another broken home

"All happy families are happy alike, all unhappy families are unhappy in their own way."
-So begins Leo Tolstoy's novel Anna Karenina.

Anyway, on happier issues.

THE O'S ARE OVER TOMORROW!!! ONE MORE HOUR OF EXAMS THEN..

FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEDOM BABBBY!!!!! :D:D:D

omg so wonderful.
srjktheklrjtgo[34u8vndeiopqcfjpxsp!!H*&~!!!!!
Heh

I'lll suffer the repercussions of November next year, but right now.
funfunfunfunfunfunfun!!!!
(almost)

I got no motivation
Where is my motivation?
No time for the motivation
Smoking my inspiration..

Bite my lip and close my eyes
Take me away to paradise
I'm so damn bored
I'm going blind
And loneliness has to suffice
Bite my lip and close my eyes
I was slipping away to paradise
Some say,"Quit or I'll go blind."
But it's just a myth

and I'm fucking lazy!

-"Longview" Green Day


haha. This song was written for me. Ok I eliminated a verse and all, since this part applies the most! The lip-biting and the boredom especially! haha. Except I smell nice. haha.

I'm on a Green Day craze now. Returning to my punk rock roots!
Hey, a while back, I was a punk rock chick, ok! It was the stepping stone. And I was an anarchist! See. It's still in me somewhere, lying dormant until the moment is upon us. Then it shall RISE AGAIN! haha.
Ah, the nostalgia. The memories. The bands. The punkrock shows. The people.
All part of my past.

Oh God I sound like I'm on Oprah or some bad daytime TV talk show.

I guess my mother was right. I AM more "grounded" now. Whatever that means. I'm not as "wild". And those are all her words.

"I was a punk rock chick"
haha.

Well my baby drove me down to the Jurong East pool so I could hand in my application for a lifeguard job with the Sports Council. Omg that pool is so cool. There's a wave pool and slides! And one day, Mun and I and Viv will go!! Whee.

Anyway, the crusty old lifeguard there checked my application, then said that he'll send it for approval and they'll call me in two to three weeks, with my employee code. Wtf does that mean the job is mine already? I'm so close to it I better get it! haha.

Rafe is my new emo. haha. Just one of the things that make me emo, there seem to be so many things nowadays that bring me down.

It's the depression era, baby.

I've just realised that I won't know the marks for the art paper that I just did, cause it'll be combined with the coursework I did. Ah damn. And I want the painting returned but it won't be. :(

I'm listening to Beautiful Mistake again. It's second from the top on the "top 25 most played" list. Sigh.

The best song to play if you want to make me remember fun times. The best song to play if you want me to reminisce and get sad, and wonder, and worry.

Sad sad sad. Saddened by anything, everything.

O level blues?

nah.

Hello! Art was good today. Well, I finished waaay before the time was up, it looked almost exactly like the picture I had in my head (which is quite rare) and I like my painting! Which is the most important thing.

Haha then I got to thinking. Every time I finish an art piece I hate it, cause it never looks like how I imagined it to be. And I score quite well for the pieces, even though I hate them.
So then I thought. If I like the painting I did, does that mean I'll score even better? Like I'm talking about A's here.
Or!
Does it mean I'll get much lower marks? Cause I hate the painting, I score high, so what if it's the opposite?

Just another example of me thinking too much. heh.

Geography tomorrow. I hope it's easy. Also, I'm submitting my application form to the Singapore Sports Council for the lifeguard job tomorrow!
Cross your fingers and pray I get it, folks.

I went to DBS today at Toa Payoh to start a back account! First my mum and I went to OCBC, but there was a long queue so we went next door to UOB, where there was a similar queue length and waiting time. So we hopped next door to DBS, which looked (deceptively) emptier. After waiting for 35(!) minutes, I finally have a bank account! Whee. I'm getting the card in "3 working days" cause I'm getting my name on it! (haha cheap thrills)

And this is to someone who'll never read this but I hope she gets the message since it's on Mun's and Viv's blog in some form or another too.
I hope you'll stop, STOP bugging Su. I think you're a very confused, fucked up person and hurting Su will just cause all of us to hate you. And being hated is not a nice feeling. Just back off, go away, piss off, leave Su alone, don't try to contact her, don't pass any messages to her via anyone else, go play around with your other toys and leave Su alone, leave her alone, LEAVE HER ALONE!
We all want you to become less than a faint, distant whisper in Su's mind. Silence is even better.

grr. People like her make me so mad.

Shaun's going to watch a movieeeeeee. Tonight. I feel so whiny :( so sadsad. I wanna go watch a movie. So many movies I've missed!! I want to go watch! And Dongdong I wanna go watch Emily Rose too. No time, no time at all! ):

Hellooo one and all!!

I'm so excited! I'm going to get a bank account!! WHOOOEEEEE!!
Now. Should I get a POSB account, or an OCBC account? I guess, (from what people have said) POSB is more convenient? But the OCBC card is prettier! hahahah.

Anyways. The O's are not over yet, and I'm so uber excited over everthing else. Like, dying my hair (I have dye! And I'm using it! soon.)
And my Bali holiday! (I'm going to learn to surf! :D:D:D)
And getting my bank account (on tuesday, I think)
And my upcoming job-to-be! Hahah. I think it's like 90% confirmed I'll get it.

ooooh excccciiitingggg!!

And on the 23rd, after collecting my LEAVING CERTIFICATE, I'm going to Viv's place to watch a DVD and eat pizzzzza! Mun and Su are coming too!

wheeee. Can't wait!

Stupid O's. Hurry up and end!!

I don't care if Monday's blue
Tuesday's grey and Wednesday too
Thursday I don't care about you
It's Friday, I'm in love

Monday you can fall apart
Tuesday, Wednesday break my heart
Thursday doesn't even start
It's Friday I'm in love

Saturday, wait
And Sunday always comes too late
But Friday, never hesitate...

I don't care if Mondays black
Tuesday, Wednesday - heart attack
Thursday, never looking back
It's Friday, I'm in love

Monday, you can hold your head
Tuesday, Wednesday stay in bed
Or Thursday - watch the walls instead
It's Friday, I'm in love

Saturday, wait
And Sunday always comes too late
But Friday, never hesitate...

Dressed up to the eyes
It's a wonderful surprise
To see your shoes and your spirits rise
Throwing out your frown
And just smiling at the sound
And as sleek as a shriek
Spinning round and round
Always take a big bite
It's such a gorgeous sight
To see you eat in the middle of the night
You can never get enough
Enough of this stuff
It's Friday, I'm in love

I don't care if Monday's blue
Tuesday's grey and Wednesday too
Thursday I don't care about yo
uIt's Friday, I'm in love

Monday you can fall apart
Tuesday, Wednesday break my heart
Thursday doesn't even start
It's Friday I'm in love

-The Cure

This song makes me sad! haha. Quite pathetic eh? Instead of doing math (tuition tomorrow!) I'm sitting here listening to songs that make me sad.

Ah well. Friday, my boy's coming for dinner ((:
I love you!

heehee

I'm here! Mun wants me to blog. I'm herrrrrrrrrrrrre!! haah. It's all your fault! ((:

Well there's nothing much to say, Mun's spent like $120 on shoes! Rawr. Moneyyyyyyyyy. ): damn shit.

oh! I'm going to Bali on the 27th to the 30th of November. Score! Expect a burnt Nic when I return. Hehhe.

I feel weird. I feel kinda sad. I wanna dress up and go out and have madfun.

Certain people annoy me. O levels suck, my life is boring.

Ok I just saw my friend's (new?) girlfriend and man oh man she is so HOTT.

And now I feel shitty. Why can't I be hot like that.

pfft.

Hello I'm back!

After a short hiatus, Nic has returned!!
heh.

You know, the year has passed so quickly it's rather scary.
This afternoon it hit me as I was staring at the poodle rug in my mum's room. That rug has been there since last Christmas, yet it doesn't seem that long ago.

That's how fast this year's gone.

It scares me quite a bit, time passing so quickly.
Days flash by like someone's holding down the fast-forward button on a remote, and half the time I don't know what's happening.
I'm afraid I'll never get to do half the things I want to do with my life.
I don't want that to happen. I want to die knowing that I did everything I wanted to do, knowing that I've tried out everything that I've wanted to.

And I'm also scared about what's happening after this. Monday's the big O's, and after that, everything, but everything will change.
For better or for worse?
Time will decide that.

On the upside, I may may may already have a job waiting for me after the O's! I shant say anything else now lest I jinx it and not get it.
:x

by the way.. "I Slept With Someone in Fall Out Boy and All I Got Was This Stupid Song Written About Me"

haha. I love that title.

While you were sleeping
I stared into the darkness
and wondered how I ended up with you so close to me
Resting in your arms is the only thing that comforts and shields me from this night
so please please stay and show me what its like to be in love
I'd do anything at all to catch your smile again
Your the only thing that...

-"Ergo Propter",
Daphne Loves Derby

I love this song. I wish it weren't just a demo. I want it to be longer.

I feel so blergh now. So let down and I don't know why.
:'(

sigh.

I so fucking love Muse. They make me wanna cry.
I was listening to them this afternoon and I felt like giving up everything.
Cause, well, in the end everyone ends up in the same place, right?
We all die don't we?
No matter how good you are, how much you've achieved, no matter how much money you've got, it all doesn't matter, everyone dies, and rots, and becomes part of the earth again.
And if you study your ass off, make it big, who knows? Maybe it was all planned out already.
Also, if you flunk out, live on the street and live hand to mouth every day, maybe it was meant to be too.
So who knows?
Give
Up
Now!

Ok maybe that was a bit extreme. haha.
To me, that's what makes something good, be it music, a book, a piece of art etc.
It needs to make me feel something. Anger, depression, happiness, whatever.

I can feeeeeeeeellllll!! Feeeeeeeeeeeeeeelllllllllllllll!!

Hello hello. Nothing really significant has happened in my life since I last updated. Since Viv is complaining that I haven't updated for ages, HELLO VIVIEN SIM!! :D
haha.
I felt so pleased with myself during math tuition today. I managed to solve a shit irritating simultaneous equation. hehe whee. After 25 minutes, and two pieces of foolscap paper.
But we all know that if that ever appeared in an exam, I'd skip it five times over.

Urrgh I feel like life has gone stagnant.

I'm so bored.
I am "math-ed out"
I hate everything!

Why couldn't I be a rich, pretty socialite in LA who doesn't have to study and who has loads of cash to burn I wouldn't get bored then I assure you!

or

Why couldn't I be a racecar driver?
(Racecar spells racecar backwards!)

or

Why couldn't I be a music prodigy? Or a famous rockstar, or an olympian, or a Mafia boss, or a hired killer, or a mountain climber, or a skateboarding pro, or a jockey.

Instead, I'm just plain, bored old ordinary meeeeee.

blergh boredom's talking again. More interesting than me though.

I'm bored I'm bored I'm bored I'm bored and there's no one to talk to. ):

i have an orange pair of Jack Purcells! hahah coolieoolies!
:D:D:D



Ok there you go that was the best part of my day.

I want this! haha. The bikini, not the model (haha duhhhhhhhh)
And I need the tan, too!
And the to-die-for body.

hahaha

What to do on the last day of school:

1. Cut all classes.
2. Sit in a dark-ish classroom.
3. Sleep, take random photos (here and here<-Su's), text people, talk on the phone.
4. Walk around outside when it gets too boring.
5. Adhere to the rule! "Back gate opens, sec. 4's out!"
6. Leave the premises early.


*This sums up 4 years of secondary school.

Don't look back, there's no looking back now.


I ate a lot of chocolate today cause it made me feel a bit happier. Not so empty, hollow and weird inside. But it's only temporary ): I feel so weird.

By the way, "a lot" is two words, if you people haven't realised. Wake up!

I feel snappy and irritable, and I'm sorry it affects people. Not that many people know.
ARGH I'm just so annoyed, ticked off. I'm such a bitch but right now, I really don't give two fucks. So there.

42 fucking people online and no one worth talking to.

Nothing's what you think it is, sometimes.
Viv don't be sad, you've got to move on right? We're here for you! Me, Mun and Su. (: Cheer up.

I want to give you
whatever you need.
What is it you need?
Is it what I need?
I want to give you
whatever you need.
What is it you need?
Is it within me?

Viv and I walked out of school today!
Second last day, so who damn cares!
We should do something drastic tomorrow, it being the last day and all.
Like.. MASS WALK OUT!
Imagine all the sec 4s marching out of school early! Ha like some goody-two-shoes people will grrff.

Oh well. Last day last day last day!!

And maybe, just maybe, we could walk out early again?

Oh, and as a parting shot.

Leow you are the ugliest sonofabitch I've ever seen, and you fuck pigs and your mother should've cut out her womb so you wouldn't have been born! Tell your parents I'm sorry the condom broke. HAHAHAH fuckerrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Today was Vivday! heh. Went to IKEA with Viv this morning, had lunch there, then we went wandering around the store ( I had to get 4 glasses for my mum) and I got this really cuteee clock haha.

It's really really adorable! haha spastic. It ticks loudly in my room, so my room's not absolutely silent anymore. I kinda like the ticking noise it makes, it reminds me of a heartbeat. heh. Weird, I know.

After that, two and a half hours later, Viv came over for dinner! Haha so really, Viv day. And I'll be seeing her tomorrow morning for tuition!

Shit that reminds me, I need to go do some math. Aaaarghgrragh!

I don't like writing in people's autograph books, cause it means saying goodbye, and I don't like that.

I had a wonderful Shaunday today! Even though it wasn't Sunday. hehe :D:D:D:DD:D

Three more days of school left.. After that, no more, abso zilch!

omg. It seems so soon. What the hell am I saying, it IS so very soon.

I'm excited, happy, overjoyed, no more stupid school!
But I'm a bit apprehensive as well. After this, a whooole big part of my life will change. And I don't know what the outcome will be.
And I've thought about it, and I've decided that I don't like how that sounds.

It's a lose-lose situation. Or I could be optimistic and say it's a win-win situation cause there're so many new, different, interesting, wonderful possibilities and opportunities out there waiting for me.

So which one?

Ok I had a very retarded time in school today, taking spazz pictures!

Follow the "nic's pics" link above my emokid picture.

Don't be a gongDong!! HAHAHAHA *winkwinknudgenudgedong!!*

heh. Ok I'll be nice and link you here!

Some idiot wrote "Leow Sux" on this whiteboard in the art room today. Upon seeing it, Leow threw a hissy fit and screeched that all sec four and five art students go straight back to the art room. He called in Tan HH and Kok too, then while Tan HH was asking us what happened, Leow petulantly stomped out of the art room.

How childish, both Leow, and the person who wrote it. I mean, I completely agree with it - granted I would've spelt "sux" properly, but still, never a truer statement has been made. And while I applaud the rebel who wanted to air her opinion so freely, that asshole should've owned up too! She made us get held back for 45 minutes fuckkkkk.

And we still don't know who wrote it. In for a penny, in for a pound. If you decide to do something you should take responsibility! Stupid girl. Stupid teacher. Stupid stupid stupid.

<- Stupid!! ->

Vivien sleeps with her eyes open!!

Yes I wanted to put this down but I completely forgot til I read Mun's blog. It's so freaky! lol.

Anyway, I made up a techno song! It popped into my head during biology on Friday. it goes like:
mathmathmathematicsmathmathmathematics
mathmathmathematicsmathmathmathematics
mathmathmathematicsmathmathmathematics
mathmathmathematicsmathmathmathematics
mathmathmathematicsmathmathmathematics
mathmathmathematicsmathmathmathematics
mathmathmathematicsmathmathmathematics

and you repeat as desired. Hahahaha. Apparently Mun thinks it's really irritating but somewhat amusing at the same time.
And I'm not going through the "lian phase"! (Mun thinks I am) The one-to-ten ah lian poses just amuse me like crazy. Haha SOOOO out of character for me.
Sitting in that dim, grey-lit stale air-conditioned hall with uber boring lessons is making me get weird. I laugh for no reason and act really strangely. heh. More so than normal muahahaha.

Sigh. I haven't seen Shaun for 4 days! It must be some kind of record. heh I sound a bit pathetic here. Mun will symphathise with me! lol.
IT STOPS TOMORROW! Muahahahaha.
Shaunday! :D:D:D

Huh I just read Dong's blog and I found my name at the top of the "people that I love to see doing this" list! So, it's like, the Unlucky Seven list!

7 things that scare me:
1. kids (those freaky little ones)
2. English oral exams (stupid, I know!)
3. losing my voice
4. meeting people who are really pretty
5. ditto for superhott people
6. not being able to be retarded with like-minded people
7. going blind

7 things that i love the most:
1. Shaun :D (haha he's not a 'thing' though)
2. Kaiya!! heh
3. well I should say my family right?
4. my phone
5. my guitars
6. my contact lenses (heh.)
7. subway sandwiches! lol

7 important things in my room:
1. my bed
2. the chargers for my phone and camera
3. my guitars
4. clothes!
5. CDs
6. CD player
7. myself

7 random facts about me:
1. I'm a certified lifeguard
2. I get jealous easily but may not show it
3. my dream job (for now) will be to work at a stable! no matter what the pay or hours are
4. I helped my friend write a chinese word for her test when I was studying in Melbourne
5. I like to doodle morbid weird things
6. I love dark chocolate
7. I hate humidity, but sun's nice.

7 things i plan to do when i die:
1. visit loved ones
2. cry
3. haunt people
4. give my friends 4D numbers (haha)
5. say hi to my aunt
6. hang around in my room
7. invade the dreams of hot guys (LOL)

7 things i can do:
1. everything
2. that
3. you
4. can
5. do,
6.. but
7. better! :P

7 things i cant do YET:
1. drink (legally)
2. drive
3. surivie financially on my own
4. get married
5. stick my feet in a big bucket of jelly
6. stay out all night
7. live on a beautiful beach

7 words i say the most:
1. cool
2. fuck
3. whatever
4. really?!
5. hungry
6. bored
7. hot!

7 celeb crushes:
1. Damian Kulash is cute! LOL Ok Go Ok Go Ok Go! :)
2. Johnny Borrell
3. the young Jimmy Page! (haha)
4. Johnny Depp?
5. ok Dong I'll say Seb Bach
6. cute emo kids haha
7. I really don't know!?

7 people that i love to see doing this:
1. Shaun (haha well..)
2. Viv
3. Mun
4. Su
5. (I'd say Dong but he already did it, huh!)
6. that old man on the train today
7. Bob!!

hahaha.

I'm feeling so subdued lately. Yes, I still sound happy and normal, but it takes effort. Sometimes I just don't want to talk, but then I feel bad.

This from Mun's blog:
" nic lent this girl her boardshorts during the beginning of the year. and the girl lost nic's shorts in school. AND TODAY! THE MALE CLEANER IN OUR SCHOOL WAS USING THE SHORTS!!!!!!HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA
that sorta made my day! :D "

I'm glad it sort of made your day Mun!

That fucking perv. cleaner and my fucking boardshorts.
argh!

The last two days have been some depressive haze. I hope it passes. I know (no?) that it'll be over by the time the week ends, hopefully. Very hopefully.

I know I sound uber emo, super duper depressed but I'm ok. It's just these weird sadspasms that catch me. Haha thanks Dong, don't get worried! :D
(Do I scare people?!)

I just read some of Adel's livejournal. MUNIRAH! You better not get fucked up and all, Adel loves you so much! It's so obvious.

Reading Adel's blog makes me missssssss you. Or maybe it's just some weird, fucked up feeling, maybe that's all.

I just had a crash course in Muslim rules during Ramadan! (spelling) haha courtesy of Mun.

I hate it when people I haven't spoken to on msn for a long time suddenly start talking to me again. All the bad english, the cliched, age-old questions, so stale! ("How's school? You'll miss it when you leave." Uh, no! If I ever do I'll kill myself.)
And it pisses me off. (I'm a snob, I know, especially about the English part)

Why does Cassandra keep calling me! I mean, like plaguing my life in school is not bad enough! I'll listen, but I have my limits and she's teetering right on the line! And every time she calls my name (ni-COL-LA), mauling it left and right, killing my name, I want to cover my ears and slap her, but of course, I can't do both at the same time so I settle for cringing inside and getting pissed off.

This post is quite random. I kinda realised that I've run out of things to say. I'm just posting for the sake of it. I should shut up.

I feel really alone for large stretches of time and it sucks, it really does. It makes me want to cry, it has made me cry.

replacing old dreams with flattery from new loves.
a hurricane self help into this evacuation from this.
you never meant to, you never meant to.
call me. call me. i'll answer.

Straylight Run just makes me emote at the moment. My emo-inducing band of the moment. I prefer quiet emo and when I hear some of Straylight Run's songs, I just want to cry.

People shouldn't become too dependant on others. It's dumb, cause when you depend on others to, say, make you happy, sometimes, just sometimes, people let you down.
Then you end up needy, whiney, clingy and you cry for stupid, insignificant, irrational reasons.
And you hate yourself for being stupid, bratty, helpless and hurtful.

I went to a gig at Third Place yesterday. Saw Vendetta, Spanish Fly and Crossbred play. They were good! And I saw Dong, Dong, you look exactly like how you look like in your photos, easy to recognise you! lol.

Go watch Crossbred and Spanish Fly whenever you can!

Crossbred makes me want to throw my guitar away and cry! haha I'll never be that good! fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.
heh.

And yesterday afternoon, I met BOB! (domdomdom) heh. HAHA well he *is* a rectangle, Viv! Lol. But quite ok. Quite cute. I'M SO PROUD OF YOU VIVIEN!! :D:D:D
Mun and I are like proud mothers.
Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

this is madness. my blogger posting window is screwing up the format is all WRONG WRONG WRONG!! Unless some weird layout change happened and blogger refused to inform me. heh. I always seem to be slow at receiving information like this.

Oh well school's been alright, we've been having mass lessons in the hall, and the best thing is.. I get to sit in a long row with people I like (Eunice, Mun, me, Viv, Su, Lizard) and not listen and play around and do the chicken dance sitting down and listen to emo on Mun's iPod shuffle and poke Vivien and text people and call Denise (even though she doesn't pick up cause she's sitting right in front) and doodle on paper and be Musharraf (Vivien is Bush) and watch Cassandra annoy Lizard and vice versa and play Bingo and Tic Tac Toe with Vivien and step on Eunice's shoes and make fun of Su and laugh like a maniac at small retarded things and talk in 'stoned surfer dooooooooode' voices with Mun and hearing Viv laugh madly and tell dirty and/or lame jokes and freeze my ass off in the air con in the hall and and and..

Well you get the picture huh? heh no, not like regular school at all! And come October 15th, I'm out of school! Study leave! and after November 22nd..
Mummy, it's OVERRRR!! :D
*excitementexcitementexcitement*
Kiss my ass siew choo!!

MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Oh I just realised I'm such a masochist. I can't help it, really! It's like a scab you really want to keep picking until it's come off, a blue-black you keep rubbing to feel the pain..
well I tried to stop but I couldn't. Urgh. Dig out my eyes, please.

Going to watch Dong's band, Spanish Fly, play tomorrow! And I'll watch Crossbred too, then maybe run off with my sweetie (:

hehe

Don't you think there's a certain painful beauty in words that are left unspoken?
Things that the other person will never, ever know, even though sometimes you desperately want to let those words burst out from behind your lips.
There's the sad bittersweet feeling of keeping something from somebody because you know it'll hurt them if you told it. And so you suffer, struggling to lock those words in your heart and seal your lips.

Oh well.

I see Viv's been spamming my tagboard again! hehe.
Hiiii! *waves*

I must not be proud! (to quote Denise and it applies to me too!)

ImustnotbeproudImustnotbeproudImustnotbeproudImustnotbeproud
ImustnotbeproudImustnotbeproudImustnotbeproudImustnotbeproud
ImustnotbeproudImustnotbeproudImustnotbeproudImustnotbeproud
ImustnotbeproudImustnotbeproudImustnotbeproudImustnotbeproud
ImustnotbeproudImustnotbeproudImustnotbeproudImustnotbeproud
!

hurrhurr.

Ok well, it's not everyday that I get to gloat over my marks, so I shall do so here for a bit!
I HAVE A1 FOR ENGLISH A1 FOR ENGLISH A1 FOR ENGLISH PRELIMS!!
78
Whooooooooooooooooooo! Highest in class! *smirrrrk*

heh ok over.
Now I wish my other results would be like that!
As if that'll ever happen. I need a whole country of fairy godparents to grant that wish.

The self-indulgent "I want"

After getting the idea from Alicia Tan today, (who got her 3rd Generation iPod on ebay) I went searching and and and (!) I found a 40GB third generation iPod on ebay.com.sg!

The third generation iPod is so cute I like it the best and you can't get it in stores now! And I could have this one, all i need is *drumroll* about S$400. And I need it in 3 hours and 39 minutes as of 9:03pm, 230905.
sigh.

"Mint condition 40Gb 3rd Gen IPOD with all accessories ie. firewire cable, USB adapter, docking cradle, earphones, remote control, Pwr Plug, box etc. Everything is in pristine condition (Laminate wrap & pouch) plus will throw in earphones special plug/pouch bought separately. One Year Warranty starts 1 Feb 05 - 1 Feb 06. You can even do a 1 for 1 exchange to a new set within this 1 year guarantee period. This is the full sensor touch version. Selling cause upgrading to 60Gb. "

http://www.ebay.com.sg/viItem?ItemId=5809864220

arghh. why is life unfair!

Shoe sizes and bad dreams

This afternoon I dozed off and had a slew of bad dreams, one after another. I can't remember much of them but when I woke up from each dream I felt horribly dreary, depressed and wanted to knock myself out. Pfft.

Anyway, today was dead boring in school. There was this talk that lasted for like four hours titled DISC, the title deriving from some test they gave us. It's meant to be about our personality, image and view of ourselves.

Apparently, from what people said, the test was very accurate. I felt like such a dumbass cause it seemed that everyone around me knew what the test was about and how to understand their score whilst I didn't know a thing.
But I guess the test was fairly correct as from the three resultant graphs I got, it showed that the image of myself that I project to other people is horrendously different from my 'private, core self'. Which is really quite true I think.
Oh well.

After that was some ACJC presentation and well, frankly, the way they presented the JC was really appealing, if I was even considering going to a junior collage. Although the head of sciences was this toad-like bulk of a man with no neck. heh. I wonder how his students pass, he's got a typical 'fat person' muffled voice and is as boring as a blank TV screen.

I saw the most amazing thing today! haha. Lizard and Su have the same type of shoews. Those chunky clownish ones haha. Lizard's shoe is much larger than Su's shoe, however when Lizard took off her shoe and placed her foot next to Su's shoe, Lizard's shoe is smaller than Su's shoe!
Even funnier, when Su took off her shoe, Su's foot is bigger than Lizard's! That means Lizard wears huge clunky shoes when her feet are even smaller than Su's!
HAHAHA it was so retarded.

HELLO SHAUN!! :)

Hehe since you're the most regular visitor here.

Exams are over! Whoohoo! But now there's the checking of the exam papers. Honestly, I don't know which is worse! Heh. I'll be sitting in the hall the whole day tomorrow, listening to talks. At least there'll be air con, and if it's too boring I can put my head on my desk and snooze! Well, I hope so anyway haha.

My new favourite band is OK GO!! (Click to link) They are SO CUTEEEE OH MY GOSH SCREAM SCREAM AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! hahahaha.
Go to their site, and watch the video for "A Million Ways" then watch all their other videos! I am so desperate to learn the dance. Now I need 3 other like-minded individuals to dance with me! hehehee.

I think I'm becoming a GGFF.
Haha thanks to Mun for that expression. Oh well Mun if you read this yeah well you could be one too huh.
Right now, the only person who matters is the one I love (: and the only person I go out with nowadays it seems.
See? GGFF.

haha I was feeling bored. And well just a *little* emo, no?
It's self-indulgence.
Good things don't last. The empty pages of my heart have been ripped out and need to be filled.

There we go.
Your daily dose of emo.

I like this ad. And now I've downloaded iTunes and I'm struggling to import all my CDs again, where's my iPod? A 20G one will be nice. Of course I'm not picky. I'll settle for a 10G one if there is. haha.

Cheer up, emo kid!

Yup I got sick of myself on my blog so I put my emokid! haha. It's not really clear in this picture but he's got eyeliner and it's run cause he cried. His name's MAX! I think that's such an emo name - Maximilian. Don't you think so? Haha.
And well, he's the epitome of an emo kid. And he plays an acoustic guitar and cries. lol.



haha. Random acts of silliness.

Prelims are almost overrrrrrr! Whoohoo! Only chem/bio MCQ and art left. And I've no school on monday, even better!
The whole week's been great. With exams on, I've been leaving school as soon as my papers are over. That gives me more time with the person who matters the most (:
Almost like the old times, huh?
I'm so happy about that :D

Oh, do you know that ice cream can look gross?

icky, no?
Well I want some now.. yummy!

Do you ever wonder sometimes why cute/hot/pretty girls are with ugly guys, and hot/cute guys are with ugly girls? Is it true, in these cases, that opposites attract?
Haha I don't know, some random wonderings that've been in my head for ages since looking at people's photos on myspace.com.
Boredom, I guess.

Anyway, it's math paper two and biology tomorrow. I'm doomed, I'm sincerely hoping I get enough time to finish the math paper. And for bio? I guess I'm hoping for a miracle, like the midyear exams. I didn't study for those and I got a B3. Hopefully, it's a miracle that can be repeated cause I'm finding it really really hard to study for biology now.

I'm tired. But I can't fall asleep :(

this makes me so so sooo happy :D :D :D

Exams, exams, exams!
Trouble, trouble, trouble!
Doom doom doom!

oh! Kaiya ate a grape today. I dropped it on the floor and he ran to it. But I guess he didn't like it cause I stepped on something green and squishy in the kitchen : gross huh!
Trust me, it was.
very, very ick.

Prelims! are gross. Literature! is over. Social Studies! is over too! Math.. is only half over damn it. haha.
URRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGH

Six months. Is six months a long time or a short time?
Is it a short time that feels long, or a long time that feels short?
Who cares!? Six months (:

Nic is an insecure kid.

I'd like more time, please. More time to do things.

Fucking prelims in two days. Just the weekend left and then it's prelims and I'm so so SOOO unprepared for it I'm really irrationally worried for the prelims even though like I told Mun, prelims are the small shit, the O levels are what matters, right? And I know I will work my ass off for the O levels. Do you believe me? or not?

I haven't done anything really interesting this holidays. Yes I know I should've been studying more but I get so bored sometimes. Not just bored with studying, but bored with my life in general. Does anyone ever get that feeling? Or is it just me, just defective, fucked up me?

I wanna play the piano again. I think I'm terribly rusty though. And I don't want to play classical stuff. Helllllllllllllllllllllp.

Anyway, Mun, cheer up, we'll get <30 for prelims together! Alrighty? Munieeeee someone's been feeding you nice emo songs! lol. You've gotten me hooked onto that Daphne Loves Derby song too! It's really beautiful. Idealistic and emo haha.

It's so nice to find people with the same music tastes. More and more of them are appearing! Now if only they'd all combine into one person, you'd get me and my weird, eclectic taste range in music.
I just compiled some songs into a CD to listen to at night when I want quiet, and I've realised that a lot of the songs are emo. hehhe.

And I read this somewhere! "Emo music tends to wrestle the inner demons of personal defeat, loveloss, heartache etc. while 'hardcore' tends to wrestle that big hairy smelly guy in the pit next to you."

ha ha ha.

sooo cute haha. it's an advert for Zouk. Cool idea. Maybe I'll go into advertising? Hahahaha.


yup. NEVERMIND. that's my capo's attitude!

This is stupid. I'm looking for more random pictures to put up here. I have nothing to say, really, but I'm really, really, really bored.


this was from art class last year.


my acoustic guitar is just so pretty!

It's already Wednesday. Two more days of the school holidays, then it's the weekend, and on Monday it's school again. NO NO NO NO NO I don't want to go back no you can't make me! To make things worse it's stupidass examinations when school reopens. argh.

I HATE SCHOOL. I HATE SCHOOL. every kind of school!
for some stupid reason or another.

I don't think I'll do well for my 'O' level art. Maybe I can hope for a C grade.
It's stupid, really. All I do on my blog is whine and put up random shit. Maybe I should stop. Argh I don't know. Moments of self-lothing and weird depression I guess.

Anyway, all that aside, I had a really nice day today :D

hahah nope I'm not content with one, I want two Shauns! HAHAH. Quick, admire my Photoshop prowness!


and this is the product of insane boredom and narcissism, resulting in a flat camera battery.


this is the result of a year of lifeguard courses!


and this just shows how my photoshop skills have improved from mucking around. Whoo!

wasn't this post random! haha now you can either stare at me, my silhouette, my boyfriend or my achievements! HAHAHA go enjoy yourself kiddos :P
maybe I'll post something proper up soon.

arghh fuck this fuck that fuck everything. everything's wrong. I wanna cry. I wanna die.

It's the September holidays! I feel kinda bad. While everyone'll be mugging their butts off during the week break I don't think I'll be doing *that* much studying. Uh oh. Can you say "naughty Nic, you're doomed?"

I hate myself for that, but I can't get motivated? And if you tell me to study and keep nagging, I'll turn around and snap at you, regardless of who you are. Or I'll feel really annoyed and irritated inside. haha so don't.

Yesterday I let Terry go! nooooooooooooooooooo it made me so sad. Yeah, I know he'll be happy, I know it's for the best, I know that I "did the mature thing". But Terry looked so small in the pond! After I put him in another terrapin swam over (I think it was a girl - typical!) and she and Terry looked like they were greeting each other. So sweet. And I just sat at the side of the pond looked like a loser with tears dripping down onto the ground. So emo. So pathetic.

On a lighter note to round off this post, I have to remember not to sit on the very edge of my chair in class and rock the chair on two legs. I did it once before and I never learn! The chair made this loud crashing noise as it fell and someone (can't remember who) said that she overheard Mrs Koh Mei Chin say "what is wrong with that girl?" HAHA Thanks, KMC! What a caring form teacher hehehe. I'll tell you what's wrong. I never learn!

At least I know how to laugh at myself but my butt's sore! And well, FRANCES HO I'm sure you're very amused huh! What would you do without me! :P

Oh well, my letter of request for my testimonial! My mother says it's "nauseating" and "the most sick letter she's ever read".
I am goooooood. Especially the last paragraph! People say it's good... up to the last paragaph! Then they say something along the lines of "BULLSHIT, NIC!" but what to do? They know me, so they know I've bullshitted more than a cow can. But.. Dear Mrs Lee doesn't! muahaha.


27 August 2005

To: Mrs. Lee Siew Choo
The Principal
Paya Lebar Methodist Girls’ School (Secondary)


Request for testimonial

Dear Mrs. Lee

I am Nicola Wong from secondary 4C2 and I am writing to request for my testimonial. The testimonial will be helpful when I apply for jobs or perhaps university in future.

Throughout the four years I have been in PL Secondary, I have learned things that I will keep for the rest of my life. My co-curricular activity (CCA) was the swimming team. Being in the swimming team has taught me discipline, perseverance and has given me determination and grit. I was also in the WITs team and I attended the 2004 Mega Camp. These two activities have taught me valuable leadership and teamwork skills.

PL has given me many wonderful opportunities. In 2004 I went on a Literature Learning Journey to the United Kingdom. On that trip I learned to appreciate Literature more, it also exposed me to places I have only read about before.
In the same year, I was also in the main cast for “The Father’s Hand” school musical. Being in the musical taught me about working effectively together with others and taught me that hard work always pays off. On top that, I have formed many valuable friendships during the musical period that I will treasure long after I have left PL.

The thing I love most about PL is how everyone, from staff to students, feels like one big family. This is something I will always appreciate because I realise that not many other schools, and certainly not the bigger institutions (for example, polytechnics) have this spirit of love.

Thank you for taking time to read this letter, I hope you will accept my request for my testimonial.

Requested by:


Nicola WongSecondary 4C2

Andddd today, teachers' day celebration. I didn't watch! (I was blocked by the stupid stairs haha). So anyway, I ended up sitting next to Nellyn, my partner in Madness! And Nellyn told me a story!!
It makes no sense! Like stuff usually does when we talk. hehe. I shall tell you the story!

"Once there was a man who had two wives.
One wife was very young and the other was very old.
The man was middle aged.
Every morning the young wife would pull out all his gray hair so he looked as young as her.
And every night the old wife would pull out all his dark hair so he looked as old as her.
The man went bald."

HAHAHAHAHAH typical Nellyn! And, well, she told me I'm the only person mad enough to appreciate the story. I find it hilarious.

whee.

When I'm at my lowest, you pull me up. Thanks for being there for me. I don't know what I'd do to myself if I didn't have you. I loveeeee youuuuuuu! (:

Today was so slack at school. All the teachers (well, almost all) were involved in the secondary one to three's cyberweek presentation rubbish, so the "responsible, dependable sec 4s" were left alone to do self-study.
HAHA so me and a bunch of 4C2 and 4C1 people played basketball! Yup, we were studying PE. Hehhe. It's so mad, half-court with no boundaries! And Frances is psycho. Muahaha.

Stupid Taiwanese kid!
Watch this and hate him too!!
I wanna play like him!
grr.

http://210.61.218.117/grm.cdn.hinet.net/xuite/56/0c/12067215/blog_13366/dv/237948/237948.wmv

Anyway, English Preliminary Examinations today. haha. PRELIMS
.
Why did so many people pic the open-ended topic "Dreams"? It's not that great a topic. Oh well. I did the discussive essay!
"What are your views on the setting up of casinos in Singapore?"

Lets hope I get a repeat of my midyear marks, or even better! Haha I need to score well.
DUHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHh.

NIC IS SO SO SO HAPPY NIC'S FINISHED HER FUCKING ART!! EVERY SINGLE BIT OF IT!! and who cares if some parts of the prep work is so fucking sloppy I don't give a fuck!!! WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!


And I had a really nice day today.

Thanks (:

"What is life?

What is life to you?

To me, life is not just the physical aspect – being "medically alive"; life is about having something to life for. Life is about feelings. About emotions. To me, the four main emotions in life are happiness, sadness, anger and thoughtfulness/confusion.

When people die, it is said that they go through a dark tunnel towards the light and their life flashes past their eyes.

My painting depicts the time just after a person has died, when the spirit floats away from the body, which is symbolized by the heart on the floor. The spirit is heading towards the light at the end of the tunnel, but it has paused to reflect upon the emotions of its life."


ok YAAAAYY!! My art is done. Well, almost! 90% done, I've still got some prep. work to do. But I'm almost there!! :D
Nic's a happy kid!
And, well, I rock ok! I've had a month and a half to do it, while everyone else has had eight freaking months! Go me! hehe.

Got the Ronin album today.
Not bad, I must say. And nice packaging.
Go get it. Support the local music scene.

I feel kinda weird listening to it though. If you know what I'm talking about, good for you! If not, then you won't have to know, dearies. (:

4C2 '05


Uh huh, yeah, the form teacher and her four favourite students! hahaha.

School's ending soon!
I mean finally, really ending.
Ok well, in less than three months.
What's going to be ahead for me?
I don't know.
My stomach ties up in knots thinking about it.

Oh well, on a smaller scale, the weekend is here!! YAAY! Art is due on monday. After Monday, no more art coursework! Am I happy or am I happy? But I have to scramble madly to finish my prep. work these couple of days.
Maybe tomorrow.
I'm such a procrastinater!

This week's been kind of weird.
I haven't seen much of my friends. My so-called ones anyway.
My seating partner's been absent for almost the whole week. What happened to her swearing that she'll come to school every day huh?
Some of my classmates are dears.
I've gotten through the whole day on two hours of sleep, no naps, not even in class.
For the first time since secondary one, I've left nothing - no books, nothing - in school over the weekend.

I haven't gone to a gig in ages, not counting Baybeats. I haven't moshed since 301204. That's a long, long time.

I feel weird.

Kaiya likes walking under clean laundry. Retarded.

I bet you all had no idea Nic could be so sappy and sentimental.

Did this for art. So stupid, what a waste of time. Oh well, at least the photoshop collage was on 'any topic of your choice'. Thanks to the many, many pictures of Jimmy Page in my computer (and the song, of course!), it was easy to come up with a topic.

Had English 'O' Level oral exam today. The main topic was on family/grandparents. What shit. Haha I had stupid questions for the conversation part. "Tell me about your grandparents", "are your grandparents independent?", "some people confide in their friends, others in their family. What about you?" and "family is the basis of society. What are your views?"

It was easy, except for the last one. I really didn't know what to say, my mind just blanked out and I kept staring at the examiner's gross thick pastel purple eyeshadow, so I kind of skirted the question, spouted some crap about how families are the most important thing and how they influence an individual, and the examiner said "alright, thank you, you may go." Heh. I'm pretty sure there was another question, but I can't remember.
Someone jog my memory?

*

I'm such a selfish person. And it pisses me off. I get jealous of other people who have more time with what I love. When someone/something is really precious to me, I always want it to myself. All to myself.

Selfish, no?

I always thought I'd be the kind of person who'd be after the fast life. Like, party, party, play. Have a huge circle of superficial friends, go out, have fun. Date and discard guys in a couple of weeks. The bare bones of a 'rockstar' life, maybe.

And now I don't have that. After the 'O' levels, no, I won't have it either. No parties, no guys, no superficial stab-you-in-the-back friends.

But I have something better. So, so much better.
Someone, rather. And I'm so happy because of you! :D You mean so much to me.

I love you.

grr

There, Shaun said post that.

I feel irritated. I have some cold/flu. I don't think my food's digesting properly, I don't feel too hot. This is annoying. I think my English is going down the drain. Half the time I look at words and I don't think I spell them right. But I don't know. I feel tired.

I found out I rock at photoshop. At least better than many people in my class. Muahaha.

HAHAHAHAHAHAAH fuck this is so funny.
I'm so amused! My father cut a sty out of Dong's eye before! (hey, rhymes!) LOL and Dr Roger Pang and Dr Tan Hooi Hwa (my dad's partners) are his family doctors! hahahahahaha I'm so amused!
I'ts a small, small world!
I'm so amused!
I feel like laughing madly!
This is so funny, it just is!
coooolies!

DONG - I am quitting the guitar and picking up the flute. says:
MING CLINIC!
DONG - I am quitting the guitar and picking up the flute. says:
fuck
DONG - I am quitting the guitar and picking up the flute. says:
DR WONG IS UR FATHER
nicola says:
?
nicola says:
HAHA YES WHY
DONG - I am quitting the guitar and picking up the flute. says:
LOL
DONG - I am quitting the guitar and picking up the flute. says:
dr roger pang and tan
DONG - I am quitting the guitar and picking up the flute. says:
they are my fam
nicola says:
uh huh
DONG - I am quitting the guitar and picking up the flute. says:
doctor
nicola says:
WHAT
DONG - I am quitting the guitar and picking up the flute. says:
and dr wong
DONG - I am quitting the guitar and picking up the flute. says:
cut my eye sty for me once
DONG - I am quitting the guitar and picking up the flute. says:
haha
nicola says:
hahahahhahahahaaahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha shit!!

27th August is D-Day! Or rather, T-day. Terry day. My mother's given him a brief reprieve and now I'm gonna release him into the botanics next Saturday. Crry. At least he'll be happy, no? Sigh. I hope he finds a girlfriend and has lots of kids! hehe.

Anyway, the school is demanding that we purchase two calendars at TWELVE dollars each!! I told my mum about it, and she said there's no way she's going to pay. HAHA so tomorrow I'm gonna tell KMC to cancel my (forced) order, and if she doesn't like it, she'll get an earful from my mother. Muahahaha. Diiiiiiiiiiiiiiie, stupid school, die, die, DIEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!

There was something else I wanted to type here, but I... forgot. Damn. It must be useful to have a memory.

OMG my brother just read me a script he and his friends wrote for their literature class. It's about gangsters! Nig's happy that he's a gangster (in the skit!) cause he gets to run around, say three lines and slash people with a 'parang' oh mann! And there's a ghost and a guy who commits suicide in it to. HAHAHAHAH. Boys.

I have an EXCLUSIVE picture from the future! Yup folks, I've travelled 50 years into the future and have come back with a picture of Dong Tianzhao!


year 2005





And here he is in the year 2055! (Taken with some buddies) :P

HAHA

Don't you sometimes wish you could get into people's heads, just for a little while, and find out what they really think of you? Yes, it may hurt, it may cause relationships to end, but at least you'd know the truth, no?

Don't you wish you knew if that person felt exactly the same way about you as you do about them? For instance, you may view someone as your best friend, or your closest, or only confidant, say, but do they feel the same about you?

Just some random rubbish floating around my head now.

4 more days of school left!!

OH. Does someone wanna adopt my terrapin? PLEASE. Terry's sooo cute! I had some arguement with my mother and now I've got til Wednesday to (quote)"get rid of it". Sigh I wish I didn't have to, I love my green monster!! ):
Help me, please.

I had a dream this morning. A very bad dream. It's disturbing, I never, EVER want it to come true. No no no.
Dreams are actually thoughts from your subconsious mind yeah? So I must have been thinking about it, subconsiously or not.

And I'm so afraid that one day, one day it'll come true.
Grr.
Please, no.

School tomorrow. For another FIVE days. Gloom gloom gloom. I have a permanant case of school blues. It sucks, it gets to the point where I start getting gloomy from Sunday evening all the way to Friday evening, then the mood lets off a bit over the weekend, til Sunday evening again.

):

ok this is stupid I guess I can't convey how I feel without sounding whiny. But if you only can feel what I feel...

"Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day"

The lyrics above are written on a piece of scrap sketchbook paper, torn out and stuck to the side of my desk. I didn't start it, Hwee Ru did! The only time I've heard it was on Sunday, in Topman. Haha. So now when we're bored, sick of lessons, we hum/sing the song (well only the chorus) haha.

Cause for us, every day in school's a bad day.

Chinese O level results were back today. Yup bad day indeed. I... FAILED! Yup. My reputation for being a straight-F9 Chinese student pulled through yet again baby! Sad eh.

But but but! I PASSED MY CHINESE ORAL!! Yes, I got a "P" which means PASS! Whoo.
I can speak Chinese!
Haha , right. We all know the truth. For me, the "P" would be better off meaning 'pathetic'. lol.

I refuse to retake the exam. And I guess lao shi knows it won't really make a difference cause she told me that it was up to me whether I wanted to sit for it again or not.
No no no no no!

i need an mp3 player so badly. gwrah!

Nic's got a new link!

http://nicolaalocin.shutterfly.com

pics pics pics posted here!! (:

the permanant link's under the picture.


I wanna live in the chocolate factory! HAHA

Had dinner at Boat Quay with my mother and brother. It was shit crowded. Saw the fireworks, nice!

I wish I were a firework. Think about it, it's great.
Live fast, look pretty, get loads of people ooh-ing and ahh-ing at you, then when you burn out, you disappear!

"Good morning starshine, the earth says hello!"
-Willy Wonka

National day celebration in school was so utterly rubbish, I refuse to discuss it. Rahh.

GO WATCH CHARLIE AND THE CHOCOLATE FACTORY!!!

Denise and I went today. So so so cool I really love the movie, I really wouldn't mind watching it again and again and again and again and again and again and again... heh.

Johnny Depp (as always) is so cute playing Willy Wonka. It differs a bit from the book, Willy Wonka's more twisted and I liiiiiikeee! (:

And the Oompa Loompas! HAHA that little fat man and his carbon copies are so retarded whahaha.

I want to live in the Chocolate Factory, with Willy Wonka-Johnny Depp to keep me amused and entertained! Yaaay!





I'm very serious.

Really.

Just because I hide my feelings, just because I cover them up with some other emotion doesn't mean I don't have them. Lately I've been feeling too much, and it's been spilling out, it's more than I can keep in. I think that box inside is almost full.

There are some things too personal, too private, too negative, confusing and unfathomable to be written out here for anyone and everyone to read.

I am heading for a

break



down.

Cheer up, emo kid!

Today I kind of freaked everyone out. Collided with Wendy during a basketball match during P.E. She fell and I tripped over her, grazing my palm, elbow and knee in the process. But I'll live. So normally I take physical pain pretty well, but something in me... snapped? and I started to cry, cry, cry.

URGH now I think about it I'm soooo damn embarrassed. How shameful, but falling down just made the day that much worse (was late in the morning but it wasn't my fault -it was my brother's!) So I cried. Stupid kid. Like I lost control of myself and if I wasn't feeling so bloody weird at that moment I would've burst out laughing cause my classmates were so freaked out.

After that I went to wash the grazes and rearrange my face to my normal look. heh. I guess now everyone thinks I'm uber werid. Blergh.

As Mun said:

"cheer up, emo kid!"

Today everything went wrong in school from the word go. After a boring assembly (national anthem/school song got delayed the PA system was down so fuckedup vp lawlimei postphoned it)(incidently, whoever heard of that huh?!) there was chemistry practical. And somebody insisted on squeezing into the same workbench as me and Hwee Ru. ON PURPOSE.
she normally sits in one of the rows in front. She sat with me so that she could copy my work. Finally I got sick of that completely so I told her to go do her own experiment. Not my fault she can't read a single instruction on her own. And if that wasn't bad enough she STANK. Seriously. There's always this gross smell near my seat, after smelling it for a week I've come to the conclusion that it comes from her. PEEEE-EEUUW.

Then was P.E, which is really so fucked up now that Mr Ong's left and we've got Ms "short shit" Liang. Argh we played full court basketball and she plopped herself into the team I was in cause we were a person short. And she can't play for shit, we're better off with one player short.

After P.E, there was recess, where some stupid fucker sec one had no manners, she kept shoving her chair into mine. Fuck I've already got no space then some dickhead goes and whams her chair into mine and glares at me cause I don't move? Not even well mannered to say "excuse me"! fuckingsecones.

Math next and we did the math test. NO TIME whatsoever, if, IF I get all the questions that I completed correct, I'd get a grand total of... 11 marks. Whoop-de-fucking-doo that's 1.5 marks off the passing mark. ARGH failure is immenent. Plus, we were made to change back from P.E after recess and there was hardly any time, and everyone was hot, sticky and smelly, and NOOOO we still have to change! Irrational!


School sucks ass.

After math tuition today I went back to Viv's place with her to muck around during the afternoon. It was raining so my mum dropped us, and we lugged my guitar, amp and pedal up to her house! And we had pizzzzzzzzzzzaaaaaaaaaaa for lunch! Her mum thought we couldn't finish both, but we can, we can!
Ok sounds like I'm high on something. I assure you, I'm not. Just boredom talking.

Oh. My mother was cranky today. Getting pissed off at the smallest things this evening. Then she exploded and I found out it was cause both my brother and I have been out the whole afternoon, leaving her alone. Erm. Well yeah, I understand, but don't take it all out on me, snapping for the smallest things!

hahah I like this song, "Space" by Something Corporate. Ok so it may not be to some people's taste, but I like it, so deal with it.
And I like the font.
And I aspire to write like that.
And I can't.
And that's stupid.
And I wonder if the lyrics are clear.
And I realise this was kind of a pointless post.
And I did it because I was bored.
And I'm typing these "ands" cause I'm bored.
And I don't care.
And I meant I don't care if it's stupid.
And yes I know it's stupid.
And I don't care so deal with it.

ohfuck. I just realised, on friday, when I did the english comprehension, I blanko-ed the word "boring", intending to write in "mundane" instead, and I don't know if I wrote in "mundane" before I handed it in! fuckfuckfuck Nic, you've lost an unnecessary mark!!! argh.

I Remember You

This morning I was late for art as I was shooting pointless hoops with Su and Viv. So I rushed down to the art room and the moment I entered, something felt different. The happiness permeating the art room was palatable. Looking around, I realised Leow wasn't there! Thus explaining the relaxed atmosphere. See what the absence of one horrible nasty bastard can do. Ha.

Anyway. Listened to the aforementioned Skid Row song recently? "I Remember You". I'm guilty of listening too much, mostly because I've been trying to figure out how Dong's sung it so low. But not your fault, my now-skinhead pal, I know Sebastian Bach's voice is damn high though. Amazing. Haha.

But I digress.

Back to it. Anyway, the first line of the song goes "woke up to the sound of pouring rain", and that's exactly what I did today. The rain was pouring. I could hear it while I was in my room, which means it was shit heavy. Oh, incidentally, the first word I said this morning was "shit!" cause I woke up late. Forgot to set the alarm again and I had to rush.
And it went all downhill from there.

The whole day I felt lethargic and listless. I still do, actually. Like nothing's worth wasting my energy on. And truthfully, nothing really was today. I was either sleeping, spacing out or just staring at the teacher the whole day. Luckily, lessons today didn't require much attention.
Oh I'm going to fail my chemistry test dismally though. The only thought on my mind while doing the test was 'the sooner I finish, the sooner I can put my head down and sleep.' Sick or what huh?

argh what's up?

This is Bob! He was born during MATH lesson today cause it was so damn boring. Bob Doodle! He plays the "Doodle Guitar-Bored Special!" HAHAHAH ok spaz.

I wish I could start afresh at a different school or something. Frankly I'm really sick of the people in school. So many of them are pretentious, so fake so superficial. So "bimbo" but being a bimbo means that they'd have to be fairly pretty, of which some are not.

How bitchy do I sound huh. But seriously speaking, I really don't like people in school. Out of everyone I know, the friends, nodding aquaintences, classmates, etc, I can honestly say I'd hardly miss most of them. Maybe at the most six people.

A new school/enviroment's exciting, for me. The first few days of being a completly mute retard then you start talking to someone and then another someone and soon so many new people!

haha.
save meeee

And there you have it.. Buttheads! Haha. I've a bucket on my head. Munie I'm not buckethead, I'm butthead, in disguise!! Muahahahha ok I'm so damn lame and retarrrrrded. Shoot me, quick, before it spreads!

Thank fuck it's Thursday night! One more day of fucking school and it's the weekend again! *phew*
And come Monday, everything's changing again. :( I hate change. Especially change that doesn't benefit me. How selfish and self-centred huh? But then again, I guess deep in everyone there's a bit of that. At least there's still part of Sunday left.